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You blink, looking up to see Lillian casually nodding.
Clive: “Huh?”
Roger: “Really?”
Lemmy: “Incredulous reaction?”
Lillian: “Yeah. I mean, I love my parents and all, but if it meant keeping Phillip safe? It’s not even a difficult choice.”
Lillian: “I mean, some of that is because of what we know now. Graduation being deadly and all that.”
Lillian: “But even before that, even if I only knew they were going to take Phillip away, and that the only way to stop them from doing it was by killing them…”
Lillian: “...well, then he’d be standing right here agreeing with me.”
Against your normal instincts, you look her right in the eyes, finding it tough to accept that she actually means what she’s saying. Despite your doubts, however, there isn’t any malice or disgust hidden in her gaze. She just stares back, smiling without a hint of concern.
Franklin: “...I think that’s just what siblings are like.”
Franklin: “Judy sacrificed everything to try and save me. At least, that’s what Temmie said. It was probably something like that for Rodney too.”
Roger: “Rodney could have realized that Graduation was worse than it seemed. It’s… a little hard for me to accept that he would go so far, if not for that.”
Roger: “You said that he heard them talking about how they’d send you away. Maybe he heard more? Enough to realize that you’d never come back if they went through with it?”
Roger: “If he already knew it was life or death… then as bad as it is, there was nothing else he could do.”
Roger: “It’s not like you could just run away. We’re all trapped…”
Roger’s expression is a bit tense. You can tell he’s less comfortable with this than Lillian is, but you don’t get the impression that he’s only agreeing for the sake of keeping the peace. Despite his feelings towards you, and his aversion to killing, he’s being honest with his understanding.
As for Franklin… his blank stare is impossible to read, so you’ll take him at his word.
Lemmy: “Guess I had the Enid/Clive relationship backwards. He’s not corrupting her, he’s just filling the small killer-shaped hole in his heart.”
Lemmy: “...Seriously, what kind of punchline is this supposed to be? Rodney? Rodney???”
Lemmy: “He always seemed so happy. You’re telling me he was the one committing familicide, and Clive hasn’t even killed anyone?”
Lemmy: “Man, God really had a sick sense of humor when he made the Schmidts; which I’d normally respect, but his tastes are too far out there.”
Albert: “Hmph. My initial assumption was incorrect. I see…”
Albert: “Thank you for clearing up the misunderstanding, which you yourself created by confirming my faulty suspicions when I presented them to you.”
Albert: “What a completely unnecessary diversion… I can’t imagine what you were hoping to accomplish with such a lie, but at least now we can formulate plans based on accurate information.”
Their reactions are a bit less positive. Lemmy is the only one strongly put-off by the violence though, as Albert seems more upset about your previous lie. Both reactions are about what you expected, although Lemmy’s is actually a touch less negative. Maybe he finds it harder speaking ill of Rodney than he does of you? (You wouldn’t blame him for that.)
Enid: “Rodney sounds a lot like you.”
Clive: “What?”
Enid: “Well… at the plant, you protected me against Giovanni, when he tried to take me away. Even though it meant getting violent and scary.”
Enid: “That’s the same thing Rodney did, isn’t it? He protected you, even though it meant doing something horrible and violent.”
Clive: “I… It was my fault he needed to.”
Enid: “I don’t think that’s true, but even if it were, it doesn’t actually matter, does it?”
Enid: “If the situation was reversed, you would have defended him too, no matter what, wouldn’t you? Even if you could argue it was his own fault?”
Clive: “Of course.”
Enid: “Well, there you go then.”
She shrugs, beaming a fond smile. Unlike Lillian’s simple acceptance, Enid gives you the feeling of being truly appraised, and getting a positive result back. She’s happy with what she sees in you.
Your eyes sweep the room once more, as you take it all in. Agreement, understanding, acceptance, concern, frustration, and appreciation. It isn’t all positive, but none of it is a rejection, of either you or Rodney.
Why did your expectations end up being so far off from reality?
Maybe… you just don’t know what other people are like anymore?
There’s been a wall, between you and everyone else, for a long while now. You can’t honestly remember if you set it up intentionally, or if it was built without your say, but you haven’t taken it down in years. It was too useful not to maintain, keeping everyone else at a safe distance, from which they could never look closer, never learn your secrets.
It’s been a long time since you’ve felt like you were part of a group, rather than an outsider.
Even now, you don’t feel like you belong here, with everyone else. You’ve never been the type of kid that was meant to be around others, and nobody but your brother ever wanted to change that.
…It won’t start feeling normal overnight, but you can try to take a step forward.
As the moment passes, and everyone’s attention shifts between themselves or to other things, you don’t lower your gaze. You don’t avert your eyes when they meet with Lillian’s, or Albert’s, or even Lemmy’s.
You can’t stop yourself from worrying, or making assumptions on how the people around you feel. Reading their expressions won’t change that, as people can lie with their faces as easily as they do with their words. You’re walking proof of that.
It’s a pointless gesture, but you make it anyway. You hold your head up in front of them, and force yourself not to turn away out of habit.
And strangely, it doesn’t feel as hard as it used to…
[Clive has healed a point of Insanity]
Franklin: “So… Is that everything? Can we go to bed now?”
In the midst of everything, you’d forgotten just how late it was. The exhaustion hits you all at once, and you nearly fall over dead right where you are.
Aside from your brief stints of being knocked unconscious, you’ve gone multiple days in a row without rest, for the sake of maintaining your silent vigil at home. You wanted to be right there, if and when Rodney came back. Much as you’d love to slip out and continue it, however…
There’s no point. There’s no chance that Rodney will come home tonight. The situation in town is worse than you realized, and there’s no reason to keep entertaining that idea. It’s a calming idea, but nothing more.
Roger: “It is late.”
Enid: “Ugh… I don’t want to get up early for school after today.”
Albert: “While attending weary would be dreadful, it’s far preferable to them cancelling classes and imposing an early curfew. Such a thing would interfere with our plans.”
Lillian: “Whatever, problem for tomorrow. Just set an alarm for school, and if it’s cancelled then we sleep in.”
Clive: “...Where do we sleep?”
Lemmy: “Dibs on Franklin’s closet! After today, I’m pretty familiar with all the skeletons in it.”
Roger: “If Franklin lets me borrow his sleeping bag, I’m good on the floor.”
Lillian: “I left mine here yesterday, so the floor works for me too.”
Albert: “I offered to sleep on the floor last time, and was told to share Franklin’s bed with him instead.”
Lillian: “Yeah, we put you there because you didn’t even ask for a sleeping bag or anything, you just laid down right on the carpet.”
Lillian: “Like, why was that your first impulse?”
Albert: “Familiarity.”
Franklin: “Well, since you’re familiar with my bed now, we can do that again.”
Enid: “Okay, so does that mean Clive and I should take the couch?”
Clive: “I think so.”
You take a seat immediately, tugging a blanket over yourself and immediately getting cozy. A couch isn’t quite as nice as a bed, but it FAR surpasses the wooden chair you’ve been sticking with for the past few days. It’s a miracle that you don’t pass out immediately.
Enid flops onto the couch by your feet, resting her own head on the other armrest, and angling herself to not lay directly on top of you. She tugs just a bit too much of the blanket away, and you quietly sigh, already envisioning the push and pull over warmth you’ll be forced to have all night.
As everyone starts to get themselves ready for bed, you can’t help but notice Franklin still just standing there, finger to his chin.
Franklin: “...”
Clive: “...Franklin?”
Franklin: “...Huh? Oh, sorry.”
Franklin: “I was just thinking… did I forget something? I feel like there was something I was supposed to do, but I can’t remember–”
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