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Lavender Mystery Wind
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You look Elle in the eye. "Do you love me?"
She recoils a little. "You can't even say it," she says, quietly.
"No, Elle, listen. This is important. Love can't be one way," you respond.
She looks angry again. "WHAT? YES IT CAN, EVAN," she yells, "Of course it can! You don't even know what you're talking about! It happens all the time! I've seen it!"
You take a deep breath. "So you're saying you don't? But you want me to love you? How does that work?" Elle sits back, taking her weight off your shoulders. She mumbles something under her breath, but you can't make it out. "What?" you ask.
"You're asking a cloud to go swimming," she says.
It takes you a second to parse the saying. "Clouds can't swim, is that what you're saying? You can't love?"
"Of course I can love!" she snaps. "It's you! You and all the humans think love means something stupid and weird. You don't even know what it means! You all think it's something different. I tried to figure it out, I tried to learn, I tried to do everything. For you, all of it. But it didn't work, you don't love me, and you're running off sharing all your secrets with the other stupid girl because she's got the same stupid ideas you do."
"I don't love-well, I'm not in love with Anna," you say. "I don't think I've ever been in love, really."
Elle droops a little. It's hard to tell with her black eyes, but it seems like she's staring off into space. "If...you ever do decide to try it, will you try it with me?" she asks.
You sigh. "Why do you want me to love you so badly, anyway?"
She runs her hand through your hair and looks sad. "I just...I don't know. Don't you want someone to love you?"
"I guess," you respond, "but you don't love me, not even with whatever definition you use."
She finally shakes her head. "No, I don't. You wouldn't want that, anyway."
"I wouldn't?" you ask.
She slumps over on your shoulder and sighs. "Trust me," she says. "Please?"
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