FRACTAL 2014/09/12(Fri)10:23 No. 593785 ID: 2c322d
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I guess... I guess this is it.

She's dumping me.

I try to reassure myself. Maybe this is for the best. If she really thinks that, then this isn't good for me anyway. But it hurts and I'm crying right in the middle of the library and I'm embarrassed and insulted and I hate this, I hate it, why did I have to pick somewhere so public?

"I guess we just want different things," I manage to choke out. My voice is distorted with tears and embarrassment plunges even deeper into my chest, making me fold up in the chair. "You know, I could only do small stuff for dates b-because I don't have much money but I - I liked just watching movies with you, y-you know? I thought it was nice!"

I get up, grabbing the edge of the chair for support. "I-If you can't see anything good about me - then I guess I don't have time for this either!" I'm sobbing but it feels good to say it, even if I don't really feel that way. People are staring but by now I don't really care.

She makes a noise of annoyance and turns away from me. "You're making a scene. You've always been a crybaby."

a crybaby? i'm sorry for feeling things

crybaby? she just broke up with you. it's fine to have emotions! anyways, just leave. nothing good will come from staying any longer, even if it feels good to get angry.

edith asked you to call for her to come pick you up, but you should probably calm down first. maybe take a walk outside the library?

>You're making a scene. You've always been a crybaby.
...and you've always cared too much about appearances. Goodbye, Lacie.

Then walk out. Don't look back.

You should probably calm down and find yourself somewhat, before we call Edith back.

Tell her at least you have the decency to feel bad about the breakup.

Aye, don't be the bad guy here. She needs a challenging relationship, and you want something slow and relaxing.
Ask her if you can at least stay friends, once all the turbulent feelings of the breakup run their course.

>>593810
To be honest I don't think they should stay friends. She seems kinda like a bitch and she's trying to put Mimi down. That's not the way friends do things.

>>593788 Do this. Whatever you do, do NOT go to where those creepy girls are.

>>593785
That's quite mean. She shouldn't be putting you down for actually being invested in what you two had after all. Sure some people can stay calm and collected even in situations like these, but it's hardly fair to expect that of you.

How was your relationship like anyway?

Fine. I hope you find someone who can do a better job of entertaining you.

It's easy to get worked up and say things you don't mean, or try to hurt someone even though you might regret it later. She doesn't seem like a very good girlfriend here and I can only hope she'll feel some regret later, but I think you'll feel better if you don't try to match her frankly callous attitude, it wouldn't suit you anyway. Just leave with a quick 'sorry we didn't work out' or 'sorry I couldn't be what you were looking for' instead.

Good god
Get out of here.
She's awful. How could you have fallen in love with THAT woman? She's super pretty but goddamn.

Why did she fall for you too you seem rather unsuitable for each other.

FRACTAL 2014/09/13(Sat)00:53 No. 593916 ID: 6ff029
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I think about a lot of snappy things I could say back, but really, I don't want to say anything at all. So I don't. I just rush out of the library, tears falling faster than I can wipe them away.

FRACTAL 2014/09/13(Sat)00:56 No. 593917 ID: 6ff029
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I want to go home but I can't call Edith when I'm like this - there's no way I'd be able to make my voice sound normal. The only thing for it is to plant myself on a bench a little ways away, far enough that I won't run into Lacie when she leaves the building.

I can't help it - I find myself thinking about the relationship. I'm not sure I know where it went wrong. I'm not sure I know ANYTHING for sure about it, anymore.

I wonder why we even got together in the first place. She's always been out of my league and I don't think I was ever the kind of person she'd normally be friends with, let alone date. But, I don't know ... at first it was fun. I really liked listening to her talk about stuff, and she liked showing me things she was into. She was really charming and pretty and I just kind of felt swept away. And she said she thought I was really cute, and seemed to really enjoy talking to me. At the time it felt like just ... a really lucky break, I guess.

Maybe she just got bored.

FRACTAL 2014/09/13(Sat)00:56 No. 593918 ID: 6ff029
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I feel like I've calmed down enough to call Edith, and I do. She comments on how short a time I was here, but doesn't push it - something I'm thankful for.

When she arrives, though, I find I'm not as composed as I thought. I'm holding back tears as I climb into the passenger seat, and of course that doesn't escape Edith.

"Mimi? What's going on? Are you alright?"

If you want to talk to someone about it, Edith seems a solid choice. If not, tell her you are upset but would rather not talk about why.

i think you can trust edith. tell her the truth, or if your more comfortable lie a little bit? say that it was a "friend" not "girlfriend" if your not ready to come out yet

I feel a pretty strong impetus to trust Edith here, especially since she's the only person who's really been there for you today. At all.

But then again, I'm not sure you want to deal with coming out, on top of everything else. And letting her know you've been hiding that you've been dating (dunno if your family has strict rules about that, some do). It seems like too much.

Plus there's that nasty little voice that says we don't know anything about how she'll react. If she reacted badly it would be devastating.

>what do
Really depends on how you feel, Mimi. If you need someone to open up to, if you think talking about it will help? She's your best bet. You're not going to have a better opportunity.

If you don't want to talk about it right now, or deal with the added pressure? Compromise. Be honest (she's earned that) but don't tell her everything, yet. Ie:

>Mimi? What's going on? Are you alright?
No. I'm not. But I will be. I had a fight with someone who doesn't see me the way I thought she did. I'm sorry, I really don't want to talk about it right now.

>>593918
Obviously you're not, but do you feel like talking to her would help? Sometimes you just need to process things and let your mind run its course after all.

I'm glad at least most of your relationship was good. No wonder a break-up hurts a lot after that. If you feel like talking I think you should.

Let's face it, even if she's nice, it's not necessarily the kind of thing you want to talk about Edith with. You should call up one of your friends so they can commiserate with you.

>>593918
you should tell her or if not her then at least a friend or someone else, its not smart to just keep it in or dwell on it

You should let it out, especially the way you were treated in there. Don't want it to fester and make you doubt yourself more.

>>593918
Ask her if you're boring. Mediocre.

FRACTAL 2014/09/13(Sat)19:42 No. 593982 ID: 2c322d
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It's weird - 24 hours ago I never would have DREAMED of talking to Edith about ANYTHING, let alone something like this, but it hasn't taken long for her to prove to me that she's really actually got my best interests at heart ... and the more I think about it, the less I understand why I've spent so long in the closet to her and my dad. I mean, it's not like I have any reason to think they'd react negatively. I've heard them talk about LGBT rights over dinner and stuff, and besides, Edith herself is transgender! If I wasn't so miserable, I'd laugh thinking about it. It all suddenly seemed so silly.

Saying it like that it sounds like my thoughts are a lot more coherent than they are - but really, all of that flashed through my brain as a half-formed revelation, and then before I knew it I was sobbing loudly into my hands. "M-My girlfriend ... just dumped me... she said there's nothing special about me, that I'm mediocre, and I just - I just -"

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, hang on." The car slows and stops - Edith has pulled the car over, and she leans over, her hands hovering. "Calm down, hang on, take a few deep breaths. I can't understand you."

It was all just bubbling out now - I was crying even harder than I had at the library. "I was dating this girl, L-Lacie - we were together for, for eight months, and I really ... Edith, I really really l-liked her and ..."

"Oh, honey. Come on, nice deep breaths. Count your breaths, okay?" Her hand is rubbing between my shoulders and I don't mind it. I do what she says and soon I've worked myself down to hiccuping tiny tears.

"A-Am I really boring?" My nose is running and I probably look really pathetic. She gets a small plastic-wrapped packet of tissues from the glove box and offers them to me, and I blow my nose loudly before continuing. "She said that ... she never had interesting conversations with me anymore, a-and that I don't have any opinions, and that I'm average and I-I guess all this time she thought the dates I took her on were dumb and boring."

FRACTAL 2014/09/13(Sat)19:42 No. 593983 ID: 2c322d
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I look up at her, though I can barely see her through my tears, and she smiles ruefully at me.

"I wish that we spent enough time together that I could provide a bunch of examples of how interesting you are," she says plainly. I'm so puzzled by the statement that I'm not really sure how to feel about it. "But," she says, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear, "I can say that I, at least, am VERY interested in getting to know you, and very interested in what you have to say, and I think that if someone else - even someone you really like - doesn't feel the same way, then that's an opinion that is reliant on them, not on you."

I blow my nose again and sit silently, unsure of how to respond. I don't have to, though, because she keeps talking. "Now, this is the part where I'm supposed to tell you that in ten years you aren't even going to remember who this girl is, and that everything is temporary and time heals all wounds, etc. But that's nonsense, because none of that matters when you're feeling awful right now."

I laugh a little bit and nod. She's gone back to rubbing my back, but she stops after a little bit and starts the car up. "So let's do this. We can go home, and I'll make you whatever you'd like for dinner - even if we have to go grocery shopping for it - and watch movies or play on the Wii and you can cry as much as you'd like. And if you need to take tomorrow off school, that's fine."

>>593983
Edith is pretty rad. Let's do all of that.

Edith For Best Mom Of 2kforever (excitedly yells about trans edith ❤)

take her up on the offer, you deserve to have a great night after what happened. what is your favourite dinner anyway?

maybe take time tonight to pamper yourself too, a bubble bath and reading one of your favourite comic

Edith wins plus 1000 mom points. Seriously, put her in the running for an all around awesome person award.

>So let's do this
Give her a small smile through those tears, and "okay".

>And if you need to take tomorrow off school, that's fine.
...it's a really nice gesture on her part, but I'd be reluctant to take her up on that. Running away from your problems at school isn't what you need.

>If I wasn't so miserable, I'd laugh thinking about it. It all suddenly seemed so silly.
A lot of things in life are like that. The things we take seriously can be pretty silly when we stop and step back.

This could help, and if nothing else maybe you and edith will get to know each other more! I second saying yes.

Maybe wait to decide whether to take on school until later. If at all possible it might be best to go, but at the very least it's great of edith to allow you a mental health day.

>>593989
Edith's ideas are pretty good, you're lucky you got a nice stepmom. It'd probably be a good idea to talk with friends too though.

See, you'll be alright. Though it's a pity you only came out to them just as you broke up with your girlfriend. Ah well, there will be others.

>>593983
She's right, you need to care about you right now, spoil yourself a little. It'll hurt for a while but not TOO long, really.

>>593983
D'awww, well at least something nice came from this whole thing. Hopefully you can get along better with Edith from now on.

Oh, and I forgot to ask in the other posts even though I was thinking of it before last update, how long has Edith been your stepmom anyway?

FRACTAL 2014/09/16(Tue)11:28 No. 594346 ID: 2c322d
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"Yeah, Edith, that ... that sounds nice," I mumble. "Maybe later tonight though, I kinda wanna spend some time talking to a friend about this too."
"That sounds good to me." She smiles at me, gives me one last squeeze on the shoulder, and we're back on the road. It's funny - she's only been married to my dad for about six months, and they dated for a year before that. Until now, I thought that sounded like a really short amount of time, but now all I can think is that I can't believe we've known each other that long and yet I somehow managed to avoid ever talking to her much.
When we get home she starts on my dinner request - fish! - and I go upstairs to my room. There's already some messages waiting for me in the Skype window I left up throughout the day.

FRACTAL 2014/09/16(Tue)11:28 No. 594347 ID: 2c322d
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[3:40:58 PM] casualcolors: hey mimi
[3:41:15 PM] casualcolors: i know you're away rn but i just wanted to check in
[3:41:40 PM] casualcolors: don't take this the wrong way but you seemed really off today at school and i was a little worried
[3:42:08 PM] casualcolors: just wanted to let you know that if you wanna talk about it or if something's wrong you can come to me
I can feel tears prickling again. Sometimes I think that Alicia is my only friend, but just as frequently I think that maybe I don't need a lot of friends if the ones I've got are like this. I sit down to reply to her.

FRACTAL 2014/09/16(Tue)11:29 No. 594348 ID: 2c322d
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[4:23:00 PM] actual anthy: hi leesh
[4:23:20 PM] actual anthy: sorry, i went to the library after school
[4:23:44 PM] casualcolors: mimi!! hi! are you okay
[4:23:50 PM] actual anthy: not really
[4:24:01 PM] casualcolors: what's wrong?!
[4:25:15 PM] casualcolors: ?
[4:25:30 PM] actual anthy: lacie dumped me
[4:25:59 PM] casualcolors: oh
[4:26:01 PM] casualcolors: shit
[4:26:10 PM] casualcolors: shit dude i'm really sorry
[4:26:30 PM] actual anthy: it's ok
[4:26:31 PM] actual anthy: tbh
[4:26:40 PM] actual anthy: she was actually a big jerk about it
[4:26:57 PM] actual anthy: like, she spent the whole time pretty much insulting me
[4:27:10 PM] casualcolors: wow fuck her

>wow fuck her
Yeah, I guess. Edith was pretty cool about stuff though, which was nice.

Yeah but like Edith is being super nice and cool about everything, which is neat??? Never really thought of getting to know her or anything tbh

Suggestion 2014/09/21(Sun)19:56 No. 595161 ID: 2c322d
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I'm not sure "fuck her" is actually how I feel. I know Alicia is just trying to show me she's on my side, though, so I don't really want to say anything about it.

[4:27:20 PM] actual anthy: i guess

[4:27:31 PM] casualcolors: do you want me to come over? or you can come over here i'd just have to ask my dads

[4:27:35 PM] actual anthy: actually
[4:27:40 PM] actual anthy: i'm hanging out with edith tonight!!

[4:27:46 PM] casualcolors: WHAT??!?!?!?!!?!?

[4:27:55 PM] actual anthy: yeah, it actually turns out she's really nice? i told her about the breakup and she's been really cool about it
[4:28:10 PM] actual anthy: we're gonna watch movies and stuff and she's making me my favorite meal for dinner and everything

[4:28:30 PM] casualcolors: wait
[4:28:37 PM] casualcolors: if you told her about the breakup that means you came out to her??

[4:28:43 PM] actual anthy: yeah, i did. she didn't really say anything about it she was more concerned w/ if i was okay

[4:29:00 PM] casualcolors: whoa
[4:29:15 PM] casualcolors: dude, that's really cool! i'm glad that went well at least

Suggestion 2014/09/21(Sun)19:56 No. 595162 ID: 2c322d
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I can't help but feel tears welling up again. At least. As happy as I am about how things turned out with Edith, it doesn't change that pretty much everything else about today has been awful, and I can feel it all hitting me at once.

[4:29:45 PM] casualcolors: mimi? you okay?

[4:29:57 PM] actual anthy: yeah i just don't feel good

[4:30:10 PM] casualcolors: anything i can do to help?

I could use pictures of cute animals and possibly cute butts asap

maybe tell her you appreciate her support? also i think it might be a good idea to try to find a distraction, do something you like to take your mind off of the bad parts of today

I dunno. I'm glad that you're here and that Edith was here but that still doesn't change the fact I that things are kind of bad right now.

Sorry. I don't want to make you feel bad or like you're doing anything wrong. It's just a lot at once.

>I'm not sure "fuck her" is actually how I feel.
Yeah, it's just... everything you feel about that is way too hard to try and put into words right now.

>>595162
"You could leave a brown paper bag with 5,000 unmarked dollar bills in the dumpster near my house and not ask any questions! ;P "

Girl get you some cat videos. Cat videos are basically made of visual happy.

FRACTAL 2014/09/28(Sun)18:20 No. 596332 ID: 219868
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[4:30:40 PM] actual anthy: haha, well, cute animal videos and pics always help

[4:30:45 PM] casualcolors: ON IT!!!!!
[4:31:10 PM] casualcolors: http://tinyurl.com/ozy7bys look it's us

[4:31:15 PM] actual anthy: omg

[4:31:20 PM] casualcolors: hang on hang on i have more
[4:31:33 PM] casualcolors: http://tinyurl.com/o7twwhd

[4:31:46 PM] actual anthy: aw!!! what kind of animal even is that haha

[4:31:49 PM] casualcolors: I DON'T EVEN KNOW??? LMAO

It went on like that for a while, and it actually did make me feel a little better. Well, more like it distracted me, I guess. Soon I figure I want to go down and see if Edith needs any help finishing dinner, though, and I tell Alicia as much.

FRACTAL 2014/09/28(Sun)18:20 No. 596333 ID: 219868
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[4:49:59 PM] casualcolors: okay but do you have
[4:50:00 PM] casualcolors: hang on
[4:50:08 PM] casualcolors: like three and a half minutes??

[4:50:13 PM] actual anthy: haha okay sure. why?

[4:50:20 PM] casualcolors: i have a song for you to listen to
[4:50:27 PM] casualcolors: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BEy5wT7iZYI
[4:50:35 PM] casualcolors: idk like, i hope it doesn't actually make you feel worse or anything?? but when taylor and i broke up i had this song on repeat and idk. i liked it. so i thought you might too

I can't help but smile. I thank her and start the song. The first word stings, but - well, there's just something about it, I guess. Alicia's got an ear for this kind of thing. And before I know it, before I even realize that I'm doing it, I'm dancing around my room.

FRACTAL 2014/09/28(Sun)18:20 No. 596334 ID: 219868
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I really never do stuff like this but it feels really right, and it feels like just by moving my body I'm working out so many bad feelings and pent-up negativity. I wonder if Edith can hear the music from my room. If she can, I'm sure she understands.

By the last chorus I'm singing along and there's no way Edith COULDN'T hear me and I don't care.

I'm gonna be okay. I'm gonna be okay. It's gonna be okay.

[END CHAPTER 1]